My Dad's Journey with Cancer
The day I will never forget. There are only a handful of days you will not forget in your life…the days your kids were born, your wedding day, some childhood memories, etc. Well, I will never forget August 18, 2022. I was getting a massage when my phone kept vibrating. I remember thinking something was wrong with my dad because he was getting his scan and my mom must be calling over and over panicking. I wanted to stop my massage, but I thought, no I do not want to hear the bad news, so I laid there thinking, this was the day the tumor started growing. Or was this the day it started to spread.
When I was done, I did not want to look at my phone. I was hoping I was wrong that it was not my mom calling about my dad’s MRI because he shouldn’t get the update until the following day. I was hoping it was work. Finally, I gained the courage, and I had 3 missed calls from my dad and a text. When I read the text it said, “Where is my Paigey Pooh? I gave great news.” When I called him, he said, where have you been? I just got my MRI and bloodwork back. In my mind, I assumed it was the same as we had been hearing that it is stable but when he continued….and I was in shock. I asked him if he checked the name on the MRI and the bloodwork. I asked him if the MRI machine was broken.
He just kept telling me over and over. I was just in shock and asking the same questions when he told me, “Paige, they found no cancer markers in my bloodwork. No cancer in my blood. They cannot find any cancer in my scan either. None. It is gone.” My brain could not process it. They have been telling him for 7 years and 3 months that it is not a matter of ‘if’ it will grow but ‘when’ it will grow. However, today, it is gone. It just disappeared.
Suddenly, all the feelings rushed over me, and I couldn't stop crying. My dad had Stage 4 pancreatic cancer was now cancer free? How does that even happen? 4 months ago, it was there and today it was gone? It is a freaking MIRACLE. A part of me wonders, did his dad go up to Heaven and ask God for a favor? I miss you gramps and I know you see this and are celebrating the news with us. I love you more dad. Always and forever.
There are SEVEN Wonders of the World. There are SEVEN dwarfs in Snow White. SEVEN days in a week. SEVEN colors in the rainbow. The list goes on.
Today, it has been SEVEN years. SEVEN years since my dad was diagnosed with cancer. SEVEN years of him beating cancer. People say seven is a lucky number and today it is lucky (next year 8 will be lucky 😉 ). However, today we focus that my dad has been fighting and beating cancer for 7 years.
I am sure he remembered but did not mention it to the family that it was his “anniversary” of his diagnosis, however, we remembered. We decided to surprise him with a celebration. A celebration showing the amazing fight he has had within himself, the strength it takes to do so everyday and the courage it takes to focus on the bigger picture. How happy we are that he is still here with us.
I have included all of you on my dad’s journey so far and it has been a long one. Yet, although tough every day, he continues to live day by day and focus on the positive. He cares about others and tries not to focus on the negative. We have learned that life is too short for that. So today, we celebrate my dad. We celebrate that the doctors who continue to save his life were also wrong when they told him he had 6-8 weeks to live. We celebrate all the memories we have created in the last 7 years. All the daily conversations we have shared even if they seemed so insignificant. Today, we celebrate family being together (missing a few from afar). We celebrate our kids having their grandpa, us having our dad and my mom having her husband. We celebrate my dad.
Today, my favorite number is 7.
I cannot wait to say that my favorite number is 25.
Love you more, dad.
2500 days and counting. A blessing. Every year around my daughter Autumn’s birthday I have flashbacks to me thinking that my dad may not meet my daughter. My dad had his Whipple surgery 13 days before Autumn was born and I was scared out of my mind that something may happen to him.
My dad and I have always been close and every year I still have that thought…that thought of fear. I am so glad that it was just a thought and not a reality. He has been involved in so many memories since that thought I had so many years ago and, now I do not get those thoughts anymore. I do not get as scared when he gets his scans. I do get nervous about his bloodwork, however, seeing him everyday fighting, enjoying life to the best that he can and make memories everyday with his family is simply amazing.
Another blessing has happened to our family on these scans. My dad’s cancer continues to remain stable and his kidney function and filtration has improved since last time. The positive thoughts and prayers are so great. Please keep them up and may this blessing continue. <3
It has been 4 months since my last post. There have been a lot of changes in my parents’ lives in these months.
However, one thing has NOT changed….he continues to beat the odds….his cancer remains STABLE! No growth and no spreading! Best. News. Ever.
His poor little kidney does continue to work hard and struggle but refuses to give up. Thank goodness! The latest results show that it is now at 37% filtration which is the lowest it has been but only by 1%. We believe that next blood results will show improvement and this was just a small fluke.
Between these tests, there is a lot that goes on. There are side effects of his Whipple surgery that I won’t go into detail that the doctors are still trying to figure out. Maybe next post that will come out when we get more information.
I know this website and these posts are about my dad’s cancer updates and they will continue to be, however, I do want to mention that through all this that my dad has been and is amazing. It has to be difficult not to get lost in something so intense, stressful and painful as this. My dad still does so many things for so many people.
Sometimes when we are hanging out with family you can just see him get lost in the happiness around him. He grabs forts for the grandkids, always has ice cream, telling stories, mentioning 100x that his brother is coming to town without probably even knowing it, stopping by to walk your dogs (and fix the golf cart), going to the casino (haha)….he does so much for the people around him and gets excited about things (brother visiting) without noticing (I think) how much it means to the people around him. Well dad, I notice. I notice you fighting. I notice you happy. I notice when you don’t feel good. I notice all the things you do for me and the ones around you. And I hear you when you laugh to yourself to take a picture. Keep laughing dad. Keep laughing.